Kisi or ka hun Filhal By Suhaira Awais

About this novel

Kisi Aur Ka Hoon Filhal (Urdu: کسی اور کا ہوں فی الحال) by Suhaira Awais is a complete Urdu romance that opens with a humiliating rejection. Nadahil confesses her feelings to Taqi, and he answers with a slap and words she will never forget.

The novel begins at the very moment it all goes wrong. Taqi’s hard slap lands on Nadahil’s soft face, leaving the marks of his fingers on her cheek and shaking her to the core. She had never imagined such a reaction from him. The sting and the insult bring tears pouring from her eyes; she has never seen him this furious. “Sharam nahi aayi tumhein?” he demands. Don’t you feel any shame saying all this to me? Have some regard for my age and yours, for the relationship between us. And then the cruellest line: try not to show me your face again. Before he can say anything worse, he stops himself and walks out of her room.

As soon as he leaves, Nadahil shuts the door and sinks down beside it, crying. She never imagined that following her heart would disgrace her like this. She has fallen in Taqi’s eyes, and the humiliation burns. If only she had kept her feelings to herself; if only she hadn’t listened to the advice of her friends Mehreen and Ayesha; if only she had never told Taqi the state of her heart, she wouldn’t have been made to feel so worthless today. But what’s done is done.

دل کی بات کہہ دی، اور بدلے میں ملی ایک ایسی ذلت جو بھولی نہ جائے۔

Then the writer introduces her properly. Nadahil is a smart nineteen-year-old with remarkable looks, but her real distinction is that, from school to college, she has always been an exceptional student – famous more for her abilities than her beauty. That makes the rejection even harder to bear for a girl used to being admired.

Suhaira Awais starts with raw emotion and a proud, harsh hero, and the title – “for now, I belong to someone else” – hints at why Taqi reacted the way he did. Fans of intense, angsty romance will find this a strong start.

You can read Kisi Aur Ka Hoon Filhal online here or download the complete PDF for free. More by Suhaira Awais: Tu Lazmi, Tum Faqt Mere and Ghulam Hai Dil Ye Tera, or see all Suhaira Awais novels.